waking up alone | wanderlustedstar's Blog

this morning feels heavy!!  A great weight seems to have crept onto me, and it's time for me to do some work and lift it...... 

Waking up alone having an image of a person in your head that you only wish was beside you....longing.....feels so awful...... has me feeling low.....

I make a promise to myself!  I will walk through this day with my head held high...of course I will cry if the need arises, but I am too good to be treated so poorly by someone who claims to be so spiritual and enlightened!  I deserve better, especially someone who wants to share love, not be selfish and take all of someones as a self-esteem boost!  Now it's just annoyance I feel on his part, and I do not need to be around someone who cannot appreciate me for me, and someone who would rather be up his own backside.........  Hurt is there and the bruises will fade......I am will walk through to the other side and I will be strong!

I think I feel most foolish for having given my heart so fast, and he has all these mushy written things from me, and I want to take them back because I don't feel he deserves it, but then I think at the time it was what it was..... though I do believe he uses spirituality as a cop out!

ok enough I must move on fluidly throughout my day!